Changing Direction

Sometimes life takes twists & turns and either we go with them or get left behind. And so it happened to me.

I’ve always struggled with depression off and on my whole life. My childhood probably was as far from ideal as it could get. But l pursavered and have learned for the most part how to keep just putting one foot in front of the other. Except I still struggle with depression and if I don’t catch the warning signs soon enough I spiral down til I hit bottom. (I refuse to be medicated)

The struggle and stress of working almost a month straight & trying to prep for this contest has triggered self destructive behaviors that signal the begining of what could be a very bad time. I’ve already had minor breakdowns & I needed to take a really hard look at what was going on in my life.

After chatting with my coach, my family and some friends… I’ve decided to cancel the show in a couple weeks time. It’s tearing my mental health apart. I thought I was ready for this, but as it turns out I’m not.

I am not quiting. I’m going to be focusing on building strength over the winter and coming back for a smaller more local show next year.

THANK YOU to all my supporters I love and cherish you all.

I will be even better next year!

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17 thoughts on “Changing Direction”

  1. Your only obligations are to yourself. Your personal victories have been witnessed by all of us. I can only speak for myself, but I persevere because of support I feel from you and your transformation. I don’t give a rats ass, if you are in a contest. I want to continue to see you healthy and let you continue to inspire me. Call me selfish.
    LOV YA ! Lisa the selfish.

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  2. You do what you gotta do! I have just enjoyed watching your dedication and seeing your gains!! Take care and don’t worry about what anybody thinks – take care of yourself.

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  3. You take care of yourself first & foremost. You have come so far and will continue to inspire many people along your journey. You will always Rock 😉 in my book. Blessings to you 🙂

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  4. Jeez, hate it that your dealing with that. I have enjoyed your post and pics on ketogains the past few weeks. Really imspired me to start searching for some home gym equipment. I want some killer biceps like yours! lol
    Good luck to you, got my support and good thoughts.

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  5. JoAnn, you are an inspiration to all – men and woman. I read your posts on FB religiously and cheer you on from the other side of my monitor. I understand the struggles all too well.

    Excuse the wall, I put it up from time to time
    A silver shade, and the design is all mine
    It’s just a maze that everyday I seem to be stuck in
    It never seems to fade away but I pray for the day it ends

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  6. I agree with everyone who has responded. You have great supporters. I’ve watched your progress and prayed for you. You know your heart well. You have wisdom. You chose wisely. You have done amazing things. i am proud of your accomplishments and even more proud of your wisdom.

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