Sometimes life takes twists & turns and either we go with them or get left behind. And so it happened to me.
I’ve always struggled with depression off and on my whole life. My childhood probably was as far from ideal as it could get. But l pursavered and have learned for the most part how to keep just putting one foot in front of the other. Except I still struggle with depression and if I don’t catch the warning signs soon enough I spiral down til I hit bottom. (I refuse to be medicated)
The struggle and stress of working almost a month straight & trying to prep for this contest has triggered self destructive behaviors that signal the begining of what could be a very bad time. I’ve already had minor breakdowns & I needed to take a really hard look at what was going on in my life.
After chatting with my coach, my family and some friends… I’ve decided to cancel the show in a couple weeks time. It’s tearing my mental health apart. I thought I was ready for this, but as it turns out I’m not.
I am not quiting. I’m going to be focusing on building strength over the winter and coming back for a smaller more local show next year.
THANK YOU to all my supporters I love and cherish you all.
I will be even better next year!